Cancelled.

So.... I canceled my facebook account yesterday. It was sort of on a whim.

After I did it and was thinking about it I realized that it mostly boiled down to one thing: politics

I was getting so annoyed with people that I otherwise would have liked. I didn't like it. The last straw was that someone who had not spoken to me in literally months made a comment to me that totally annoyed me. Call it hormones - who knows, but I just thought to myself, "I would like her a lot better if I hadn't known her political stance." I also thought that she might not have said what she did if she had been standing right in front of me. So I just did it. Canceled my facebook. And my myspace. And it feels good.

I don't have some of the issues about it that I've heard other people mention - I didn't mind the surfacy relationships. I actually kind of liked getting back in touch with people I had spent years wondering about, even if it was to just say "hi - glad to see ya!" But if I'm being completely honest, I will say that I'm positive I have done the exact same thing to others that my "friend" did to me. Uncool - looking back on it.

I also felt a little weird about all of my employees and more recently, students, knowing everything that was going on in my life. Some of them are totally cool - they respect me and work hard for me. Some of them - not so much. As much as I try to avoid it - gossip is prevalent. Sometimes a little too much at a place where a lot of women, from the same town, whose kids go to the same school, gather and have the opportunity to talk. So I guess it's also my way of flying under the radar a bit - I like that.

And finally, I'm chuckling about this even as I write it. Not the reason I canceled - but let's just say a "benefit" of canceling. I won't have to see my ex-boyfriend's name pop up on my friend suggestions everyday anymore. It just seemed kind of weird - that we had like 153 out of my 350 and some-odd friends in common and every time I saw his face I just wanted to hit a button that said "REJECTED" or something. But I couldn't. His little face just kept popping up everywhere I turned. Not that I'm still bitter or anything....

Anyhow - this discussion could go on and on. I really didn't think about it all that much when I did it. Sorry if you've been looking for me and couldn't find me. But it does make me feel loved to know that some of you noticed and missed me. I'm pretty sure those of you who really want to get a hold of me know how to - except maybe Michelle? But Martha has my e-mail address. And since we'll all be seeing each other in a couple weeks it'll all be cool. Right Martha? :-)

You might see me around facebook again sometime. Admittedly, I can be a little fickle about stuff like that. Maybe after some of the "extras" in my life settle down a bit more.