And other random thoughts to enhance your day.
1. My gut has gone wild. In many, many awful ways that I won't go into... for now.
2. I have a whole new respect for Michelle Duggar and her 19 pregnancies. I loved her before but now, she may have achieved saint-hood in my heart.
3. I am only 18.5 weeks along and my insides feel like they are going to explode out of my super-tight, stretch-rebelling skin. It makes me feel claustrophobic.
4. Justin and I are trying to think of creative ways to get me OUT of this house. Like wheel-chairing around the mall. I'm desperate.
Ok... I just read this back to myself and have decided I'll stop there. It sounds really depressing. The reality is that I'm having a very hard time. Please pray for me, friends. Pray for my emotions and my mental well-being. The details feel a little raw to share here publicly, but some days I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the next months.
Fortunately, our home is never without some comic relief to lighten things up. I'll leave you with the best from today so far.
Steele: Adia, be quiet.
Me: Steele, why did you just tell Adia to be quiet? That didn't sound very nice.
Steele: Well, she just says the rudest things to me ALL. DAY. LONG.
Me: Really? What did she say?
Steele: She said, "Steeeeele!" (with a little rise in intonation at the end)
Wow. How dare she!
(Also, I've never thought much about it before, but I would really love to know who I'm sending these random thoughts out to in blogland. If you're a lurker - leave me a comment. It would make my day.)
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LURKER!!!! always reading....and always thinking and praying for you!!!
Cutzi... this is Joann's mama. I guess you could call me a lurker but I find your posts so "real". It is hard to be honest some times and I appreciate that you share from your heart. You know, that many people are praying for you!
Years ago a friend broke her leg and had to be in a full cast from the waist down. Friends took turns sleeping over... so I'm not suggesting a sleep over but maybe we can take turns visiting to help perk you up?
You know I lurk. And I hear ya on the pregnancy thing. Good thing the finished product is something we love unconditionally, otherwise the human race would come to a screeching halt.
Me me me! :-) Love your posts and the little glimps you give us of life in your world. You are real and honest and I'm glad I know you.
If comment love is what helps get you through today, then I am giving you a small dose right now!
I think about you often. It is too crappy that you are experiencing all these negative things during your first pregnancy.
Here is wishing you an OK day!
I am a lurker as well :) Thanks for your honesty - the rawness of what you are going through helps me to get through my "stuff".... knowing that we are all going through stuff together and that God is with us.
I'm here Cutzi! Love reading your honest posts. Always praying for you!
I'm here!!! maybe a girls night out but in instead - have a movie, goodies to share and laugh a lot!! Here is a {{{HUG}}} for you!!!
You're in my thoughts and prayers, Cutzi!
I always read your blog. I will come see you and bring you a meal, as soon as I am SURE that we have gotten this cold bug out of our home. I am praying for you as always. Pregnancy really is hard! Michelle Duggar must be the toughest lady in the world. I don't know if I am tough enough to handle a fourth let alone 19.
Fine, I'll delurk myself. My name is Jodi and I've read every single one of your posts since Day One. Sometimes I read them more than once. Call me a stalker, but I guess I just really like you. Whew. Felt good to get that out in the open.
And I am committed to going to the Father every day for you. Feeling at a total loss for what I can do to help you, and knowing there's nothing any of us can do to make it go away, I know that this is the one thing I can do that will make the biggest difference. xoxo
By the way, going back and reading your title for this post made me laugh out loud.
I'm a lurker.
I don't like Lurker, I prefer stalker....lol. Love reading about you and your kids!
Always read your posts. Keeping you in my prayers. Right there with you on the gut thing--it's totally a prego thing. One day it's one issue, next day another. Keeps life exciting, that's for sure! Are you knitting up a storm? I want to bring a meal and visit one of these days. ~Chantel
I'm hardly a lurker, but since I usually catch up on blogs on my phone on the buss on the way home in the evenings I find myself being lazy about commenting. And as a blogger I know how much comments can mean, especially when putting yourself out there.
Your readers are a little like God. We're here, we read you, we love you, and we care.
So, Cutzi, I'm here, I read you, and I care. Unlike God, my resources and time are so limited right now and I hate that I can't drop everything (like my job) and come help you physically. But I can pray for you and trust the God who can provide the help you need.
I adore you Cutzi! This journey you have chosen is absolutely, stunningly AMAZING and I'm so impressed that you have let us, your readers and friends into the intimate details of your struggle. Thank you for keeping it so real and honest. It frees us up to do the same. You are teaching me to ask for help when I need it.
I love you friend.
Linda
I read earlier, too- but didn't have time to comment. I read ALL of your posts.
I'm sad to hear about your gut gone wild.
I'll keep praying for you, friend!
Hi Cutzi! I read your posts faithfully and am excited for this journey you have chosen - but so sorry for the negative side effects you are experiencing!! :( ((Oh Eve... did you really have to take the apple??) XOXO Praying for you! Can't wait for the "'post'-de-resistaunce" (sp?) when we see what(who) all this trouble was for! :) Love,
Camee
My poor friend! I'm always sending positive thoughts your way, sister! I wish your pregnancy was more fun for you, but you're almost halfway there, Cutz! and soon you'll feel your baby move and it will be amazing. That (for me) was the only cool thing about being pregnant. If i lived closer, I'd come over and clean your house for you and love you all up...but for now, my positive energy will have to do :)
Hi Cutzi! :) I read your blog very often and have been praying for you throughout this pregnancy! I so appreciate your honesty, too (I have to admit, I hated being pregnant the first two times!). Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your walk!
Praying for you! I appreciate how real your posts are. ~Jamie McMillen (from Hillcrest)
Hi Cutzi!
I'm a lurker too! I can't even remember how I found your blog, but it's very inspiring and I truly love reading your posts.
Take Care,
Melissa Hyland (Melissa Luchi)
Cutzi, I love to get caught up with you and your family by reading your blog. Your wit, and cleverness never cease to amaze me! I am praying for you and that sweet baby you are carrying.. Stay strong, and positive!!
We all love you out here in the world of blogger land
xoxox
Jen Wheeler
i'm lurking. :) we've never really been friends, more like acquaintances... i remember talking to/with you a few times at hillcrest, way back in the day. what day? who knows. anyway, i didn't know you were prego! congrats!!! we have a few mutual friends, i saw a link to your blog somewhere (maybe a comment from you on Jodi's blog?) and when i clicked and was "catching up" on your blog i read the bit about lurking, thus my comment. i lurked here a while back when you were adopting your youngest. here i am again. anyway, glad to know you're with-kidlet, and will pray for the continued safety and health of you and baby. praise Jesus for his miracles!
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